…was hidden away for far too long.
I love to write. As a child, once I learned to string words together into sentences, a whole new world opened up to me. I’ve been writing ever since. I’m fascinated by the fact that I can take all of the jumbled up thoughts that swirl around in my head and sort them out on paper. It has always been the best therapy for me.
When I was young I was so proud of my writing; I’d happily share my stories with others whenever I could. My love for reading soon followed, but the more I read, the more I compared myself to other writers and felt like I didn’t measure up. I began writing in secret and tucking my words away where they’d be safe and unseen. I couldn’t bear the thought of not being good at something that I loved so much. Eventually, I stopped writing altogether and for a long time it felt like one of the best pieces of me had died.
Then I read this quote by a pretty cool guy named Jesus: “No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house” (Matthew 5:15 NLV) and it really resonated with me. The love of writing had been put inside of me for a reason, and even though I had stopped writing that didn’t make it go away. I could either let fear of failure take away what I loved, or I could be brave and allow myself to fail a million times doing what I loved most. I chose possible failure and that is how this blog was born.
I’m not going to lie, I still feel anxious and uncomfortable about sharing my words with others. My palms sweat a bit before I hit that “publish post” button. But I’m done with letting fear guide me; it has steered me wrong for so many years. I’ve missed out on so much because of it. No more! For the next year I will share my writings (crappy and otherwise) every week and work on being brave…right here for you all to see. Because, as the amazing writer Paulo Coelho says (in the Alchemist): “It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting” and writing is my dream come true.
Thanks for joining me in this crazy adventure!